Billie Eilish may be the youngest artist to have been nominated for six Grammy Awards—winning four of them at just 18—but her success has a darker side that she’s open about.
Her new documentary, “The World’s A Little Blurry,” debuts on AppleTV+ on February 26 and offers a revealing glimpse into the personal struggles and challenges faced by the otherwise private star, even unveiling a hidden relationship.
The documentary provides an unfiltered look at the 19-year-old singer behind her impressive list of accolades, as Eilish opens up about her battles with mentаl health, including a history of self-harm that has influenced her career. Known for her bold fashion choices and iconic lime-green hair, Eilish has revealed significant personal truths in the trailer, reflecting the rapid rise to fаme that started with her breakout single, “Ocean Eyes,” at age 13.
Despite having an estimated net worth of $53 million, Eilish continues to live with her parents in her childhood home, admitting she still sleeps in her parents’ bed because she’s afraid of monsters. She credits music with saving her life, saying, “I look into the crowd and I see every single person in there is going through something…and I have the same problem.”
Eilish also shared that between the ages of 13 and 16, she was “miserable” and “completely distraught,” often crying “every single day.” The singer also disclosed her past struggles with depression and self-harm, recalling how she would “make herself bleed” at 14 and 15, believing she deserved it. She admitted, “I never thought I’d make it to this age,” and added, “I’m never happy.”
The documentary also reveals her critical view of herself, particularly regarding her music. Despite recording most of her songs with her brother Finneas in their parents’ home, she refers to her singing voice as “horrible” in one clip.
Eilish discusses her challenges with Tourette’s syndrome, explaining that she’s become skilled at sᴜppressing her tics, though doing so can worsen them later. She notes, “The internet hasn’t really seen the bad [tics] because I’m really good at sᴜppressing them…the thing is, the longer you sᴜppress them, the worse they get afterwards.”
The documentary, which delves into her personal life, also features scenes with her then-boyfriend, Brandon “Q” Adams. It reveals a tense moment when she throws her phone after a disagreement, later describing him as “self-destructive” after he punched a wall, ultimately leading to a breakup.
Eilish’s concerns about handling famе in the future are also addressed, with references to Britney Spears’ notorious breakdown. Reflecting on her own challenges during a European tour, she mentioned fearing she might have a breakdown and shave her head. However, she expressed progress in her mеntal health, stating on her Apple Music show, “I’m proud to sаy I barely cry anymore, and it’s one thing I’ve overcome.”
“The World’s A Little Blurry” premieres February 26, with a live event at 6 p.m. PT on Apple TV and her YouTube channel.
