In Variety’s “The Power of Womеn” issue, Billie Eilish openly discusses her journey with femininity and attraction towards womеn, following years of scrutiny regarding her body and sexuality.

The 21-year-old music sensation reveals her struggles with self-perception, admitting to never feeling desired or feminine due to her history of wearing baggy clothes. Eilish, clarifying her preferred pronouns as ‘she/her,’ confesses, “I’ve never really felt like a girl.”

Despite her complex feelings about womanhood, Eilish acknowledges her attraction to womеn, expressing admiration for them as individuals while also feeling intimidated by their beauty and presence.

Navigating public scrutiny about her sexuality and dating life, which she describes as “weird and upsetting,” Eilish has remained relatively private. Her past relationships include musician Jesse Rutherford and actor Matthew Tyler Vorce, with whom she split amicably. She also addressed her frustration with media inquiries into her sexuality, emphasizing the double standard regarding discussions about mеn’s personal lives versus wоmen’s.

Eilish’s candid reflections shed light on her personal journey and the challenges she faces within the public eye, asserting her right to privacy and autonomy over her own narrative.